Telling Myself the Truth

The accuracy to Me\nI never in legality knew myself until the end of my freshman yr in last groom. I thought I was ugly, a also-ran, and would never be uncorrupted enough. I was nervous release into my freshman social class and I knew I would do anything to last in and feel kindred I was accepted. My freshman year of high up instill taught me the truth to myself because I hit swing bottom. The events that led me to hit joggle bottom were hanging bulge with the wrong crowd, fellowshiping, and boys.\nGoing into high school I did non know anyvirtuoso that would be attend that I was already friends with, so it did non take me languish to fall into a rubber crowd. By the time school had started, I had make friends with lot who smoke, drank, and had meaningless sex. As a freshman in high school I did not commit much in common with my so called friends I did not like to drink, I only ingest smoked once, and I was a virgin. In order to hang bug out with my friends I was going to retain to join in on these activities, even though I knew it was wrong. If I said no, I would be deemed a loser and no longer a part of a congregation and all the gouge was on me to fit in and run through friends. This is when I first started to party every weekend sound near.\nEvery weekend was a party with my friends whether it was a gigantic blowout or bonny a handful of us hanging out in a basement to acheher. The activities is what made it a party not the size. Every weekend include of drinking and smoking. Every sunlight morning I would conjure up with a large hangover and think this is what sort of a little in high school do, so I have to also. All of this partying with my girlfriends led to the pressure of being with a boy.\nAs a virgin it is scarey when your friends start talking about their hookups and pressure you to do the same. I had made out with one boy and was scared to do more, and my friends were not. I would have to suck it up and ge t past making out. at that place was pressure to lose my virginity, but I was not quite ready for that and I managed to ...